Hey my lovely readers, today's post will be the last one about New York City... at least until I go back again ;-) With these pictures taken in Brooklyn last year in spring I wanna share some thoughts about traveling with you...
So many times have I asked myself where exactly I live... Is it Germany, where I study and where I come from, is it New York, where I spent more than two incredible years, or is it Mallorca, where I live part-time now, where I have my boyfriend and friends, where I find peace...
I'm actually on Mallorca this week, took a break from university, so you can expect some more photos from my favorite island ;-)
Let me clear my situation: I was born in Germany, I went to school there, I have my family there and now I'm going to university and have my own apartment there. From 2010 until the beginning of 2013 I have lived in New York City. And by now I travel to Mallorca, a wonderful Spanish island, almost every month or every second one to see my boyfriend, part of my family and my friends.
So where exactly do I feel home?
It's strange, I have always felt more home anywhere else than in Germany. Home is indefinable... I feel home when I'm with my parents and sisters - my family. But I also feel home when I'm on Mallorca with my boyfriend, at the beach, in the mountains, I surely do feel home there. When I went back to New York City this September I also felt home there. I visited my former host family who I lived with for two years. I always feel home when I'm with them, in our house in the Bronx, and also in Manhattan or Brooklyn.
Home, home, home - is it really where the heart is? I feel like I have lost my heart in so many places that I can't decide which one I should call home. The quote "Why settle for a single Home when you can have the entire World?" fits me much better!
A lot of people travel nowadays, A LOT! Bloggers cruising around the world, young adventurous students chilling in Thailand, au pairs starting a new life in the States or elsewhere... Traveling became so easy, so accessible to all of us. But traveling itself is not my problem - the problem is: I have LIVED in so many places! Well, so many, three :-D But I settled in three countries - Germany, the USA and Spain - I have friends, family and a life there! So how can I decide where I feel home most?
The reason why I'm writing this post is because after I traveled back and forth between all three countries this summer, I felt kinda lost. I was not only exhausted from traveling but also disoriented. I didn't wanna go back to Germany to study because I spent so much time in New York and on Mallorca that I felt like I don't belong there and it made me depressive somehow.
Maybe I don't wanna have the entire world as a home, it's nice to know where you belong. For example my boyfriend, he loves his island and he wouldn't wanna live anywhere else. On the other hand, isn't it really exciting to live in so many places?
I guess I'm just a young, confused globe trotter girl who's trying to find her place in this world. Every country has its advantages and disadvantages but I'm sure that some day I will find the right place for me... or more than one? And you know what just came to my mind? In my case it's not "Home is where the heart is" but maybe it's more "Home is where your story begins"...
PS: If you wanna let me know what you think about this post, or if you have similar feelings and thoughts about traveling or your home, feel free to leave a comment or your questions and share your thoughts ;-)